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YOU HAVE TO READ MY DIARYS FROM THE BOTTOM UP THE FIRST ONE IS AT THE BOTTOM THEN WORK UP NEW TO THIS BLOGGING DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT ANY OTHER WAY SORRY GLORIA X

My Diary

Day 2  Morning  .I.am feeling a bit stressed this morning ,quite a hard habit to kick i really am missing my ciggys ,still i am going to put on my patch and try to find loads to do i'm told this helps and for someone who loves housework as much as i do (ah hum) this should help .I must admit i've spent part of the morning trying to find a smoke BUT i am not going to buy any got an appointment with the no smoking nurse tomorrow so that should help   Afternoon.....I feel awful dying for a ciggy ,keep reading the no smoking leaflet sucking on sweets (looking for dogends)   Evening.....Keep telling myself i will die if i dont give up i maybe dont feel quite so stressed as this morning .I am at least £15 richer ,but id still love a ciggy, i am going to say fags from now on that sounds more nasty and i want to think ciggys ,Nasty,I am now off to bed with martina Cole ovaltine and 3 cats....    Day 3 Morning.....I suppose i feel ok this morning must try a new place for the patch today kept falling off my arm yesterday im going to try my bum...,This feeling ok this morning is it the lull before the storm hope not ,I really did miss a fag with my morning cuppa but had a pile of rich teas instead ,would have had celery but its the ol false teeth yer know....Afternoon ...Do you know nobody believes i can do this.i cant blame them i have tried so many times before ,to get to 3 days is amazing 3 hrs before .I suppose i do feel proud of myself .this afternoon i cleaned all the windows and washed the nets this is there usual christmas treat (not really )Tummy feels a bit bubbly never mind the leaflet says this is normal , i do miss having a fag with a cuppa ..... Evening....CONFESSION! fagend in ashtray,behind curtain,one i missed when i got rid ,oh dear smoked..Im now off to bed with Martina Cats and tonight a box of turkish delight ( a present for someone  cant think who)  but a girls got to have some fun ....Day 4 ... Off with the duvet on with the patch no good on my bum so im going to try my waist and im going to buy some superglue just in case no no not really (im not going daft just mixed the days up no smoking nurse today not yesterday )I dont seem to have any bad withdrawal symtoms yet maybe its the patches, maybe the dogends,maybe my determination this time not sure,Maybe, not quite so industrious but still pleased with myself .Oh yes and £25 better off ..Afternoon........Off to see no smoking nurse wait till i tell her i have not smoked for 4 days.  ...I feel totally deflated i went to see the nurse full of beans to tell her i hadnt smoked for 4 days .Apparently because i never went to her first and went straight to my doctor she cant measure the carbon minoxide in my body because she didnt see me on the first day so there was nothing to see me for ,how good is that for someone packing up what encouragment,but i still have to go to her for the presciption for patches i felt like i was being scolded not praised ,oh well it takes all sorts n.h.s.hard to savvy some times .I still have my family behind me My eldest son who lives in France phoned me,. him most times out of all my kids has put up with my giving up attempts over the years he dosnt believe i will do it cant blame him at all " we will wait and see mother" he said and wished me all the luck in  the world to do it ...My other son James and sister Shelly who both smoke are going outside to have a fag how sweet but im sure they both think its only for a few days they all know how much i enjoy a Fag (i hate that word but thats the whole point of using it)Evening.....Ate a big bag of jelly babies and a bag of chocolate rasins ..I did the hardest thing this evening had to go round the little local shop with fags looking at you when you pay the bill ,never bought any ,proud of myself off to bed now with Martina cats ovaltine hobnobs (as i said girls got to have some pleasure ) and a slightly bulging waistline but smelling like roses and not stale fag smoke nite.......   Day 5 .....Morning....Pretty hard day yesterday but i got through it im off to do a car boot today first one since i gave up smoking..Vases,toys jeans, t-shirts ,teddys, kitchen sink off we go...Afternoon....not to bad it did cross my mind to buy just ten fags at the garage when i stoped for petrol on the way (i do love a fag when driving)(cant think if theres an e in driving never mind i know theres 3 in cigerette.I think everyone at the car boot today was smoking or it seemed that way,they all smelt so good spent half the day sniffing people as they walked by ,they must have thought i was a right loony,I told all my fellow car booters and my customers what i was doing and i must say they were all very supportive.Also.now im £30 better off this week...evening ....My daughters out for the evening went over to get her tortoise in found a nice big dogend in her ashtray i looked at it walked away hey you thought i would leave it there no chance ,smoked it not to pleased with myself but boy that tasted good abit head buzzing but good. Now off to bed with mint creams, ovaltine,cats and of corse Martina.... Day 6 halfway through my diary feel a bit wobbly today and anxious went to bed with the patch on last night buzzing with my quick puff  i think, tried my spiro meter  gone up to 250 from 300 anyone who smokes should have one of these oh by the way it should read about 500 for someone my age  Afternoon....my breathing is much better The withdrawal is also not as bad as i thought  ..Evening ...I feel i have got some of my life back like .Oh big problem.... my son still has some things upstairs and is away on buisness at the moment, i took some of his things upstairs to put away and in his wardrobe i found a pack of 200 fags ,Like finding a pot of gold ,now big decision i know he would not mind me having a pack ,Or will i take them over to my daughters for him to collect when he comes home ,its late now ,typing fingers a bit achey so im going to leave you to make your own choice ..What will i do ..bye for now x

My Diary

A few weeks ago i started to write a No smoking diary unfortunaty my daughter had an sking accident and has been unable to walk since Febuary,so my time has been taken up helping her ,at last she is getting better so i can now wtite the diary i promised ..I hope you will smile with me when you read it,i dont doubt you may feel a bit discusted with me.Anyone who has smoked for as long as i did you maybe will understand the difficult job it was for me and why i did what i did ,but,i am going to tell you the absolute truth ,please enjoy ... Day 1 22 November 2008 morning (my brother Freds birthday).....Here i am armed with the nicotin patches bag Clarnico mint creams(one of my favorites) and my no smoking booklet from the doctors which i have filled in honestly because only i have to see it.I found this booklet very handy and i did keep refering back to it but hey guess what when i recommended it to friends when they were trying to quit the docs had run out and waiting for more to come in (why am i not surprised)I have got rid of all my ciggys lighters and ashtrays (only in the cupboard at the mo.)i do feel a bit scared well this is goodbye to a lifetime or almost a lifetime friend... Afternoon Not to bad really but i must admit i am desperate for a ciggy,keep reading the no smoking booklet, the pages on what you can save,health,how im gonna feel etc.and the advice it gives .Had to go shoping guess what there was a lovely big dogend in the car guess what smoked it not to pleased about that ,never mind its done now cant change it..Little thought going though my head of me walking through Lowestoft town center picking up dog end and rolling them in a peice of toilet paper ,NO NO NO chance honestley.. Evening ...Well honestly i have not bought ant ciggys ,this is such an achievment for me ,such a big step i feel optamistic and still a bit scared (i wont shout to much about the 2 dog ends i found in my sons ash tray upstairs in his room )off to bed now with Martina Coles novel mint creams and cup of ovaltine nite......